Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I gave you that name, boy
I will never stop being sorry that your home got broken
Feel like I owe you for the road that I chose
But I believe things happen the way there supposed to
And you'll always be with me wherever I go
I was right there for your first breath
Used to lay you on my chest when you slept
I fed you, changed you, read to you, bathed you
I ain't tryna' hold that over your head, I'm saying thank you
God put you in my arms for me to teach you
Sometimes I gotta not be popular to reach you
But boy look me in my eye when I speak to you
I tell you these things cuz I believe in you
Respect, patience, excellence and truth
Make good choices and always follow through
But above all else know Allah always watch us
And everything we do comes back upon us
Alright, lets talk about your Mummy
I need you to know I used everything inside me
To make you as healthy as you could possibly be
And I just couldn't see a good future for us three
And you gonna have questions as you grow
But there's certain negative things that you don't need to know
And baby boy thats what this is about
We live, learn and figure it out
I just pray you don't remember the days I was to busy
Or the night I made your mother cry
It took alot of hard work for us to get where we at
and young man we ain't quitten at that
Just know that it hurts me to death when I leave
I'm scared that it might make you feel unimportant
But our bonds so strong that the moment I get off
We seem to pick right back up where we left off
I try to say I do it for you
But in my heart I know thats not entirely true
So if I ever come home and feel it hurt us as friends
Swear to God I'll never leave again
I ain't never met a child quite like you
Words don't suffice for me to describe you
You have a genuine goodness inside you
I watch you and wonder if I was ever like you
It's me and you brother for life
So when you put me in the ground look for me in the clouds
You make me the definition of proud
Taught me what this life is really about

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Fairy Tale Town!!!

So I had the chance to take two of my favorite people to fairy Tale town and I felt like sharing my pictures with you for your viewing pleasure hope you enjoy.

Dear Tyler
I won't take up too much of you time
I know you're trying to get your star wars viewing on
And that's fine
Just gimme a second to empty my face
Before I hit the road again to go and win this paper chase
I've been watching you man
I'm proud of you man
You're growing up to be the best man that you possibly can
I know you understand
Why I go out of town
I also know my days are colder when you're not around
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be adapted to the fact
That daddy never lived inside the same shack
And sometimes I get this pain in my stomach's pit
It's what I get
I'm convinced it's my punishment
For those nights I got drunk and let go at some bar
In some city with some people I don't know
For all the times that the lines on your face
Reminded me of the days before the dagonflies escaped
It trips me out how you pick up all my traits
From the way that you spit to the fists that you make
I watch the way you try to keep your mom happy
Daddy learned that from you
You're supposed to learn that from daddy
I can't teach much when it comes to women
I drive safe and slow but don't know nothing 'bout the engine
You're doing good little man thats all I really meant
I love you
You're my best friend, thanks for listening

Second Chances and New Beginings

So here I am waiting for class to start and board as heck. So I say "self its time to start a blog". So I am new at this you must bare with me. Thanks a bunch. I have found myself pondering myself lately and decided its time to move forward I have pretty much perfected the life of a degenerate and maybe its time to try something new. SO I started school a few months back and its going pretty well, I am studying criminal justice and would eventually like to find myself in a rehabilitation role to support juveniles. I have a ton of experience being a screw up and I figure maybe my experiences might benefit someone else and prevent them from going through what I had to go through. I know my heavenly father lives I know I am here in these latter days to make a difference in someones life. My heavenly father has a plan and it is awesome I have struggled more than most but it has helped me in my understanding of the atonement and its purpose. I love my son with all my heart I may not be up for the father of the year award but some day I plan on it. I love you as well thank you for reading my blog and making me a part of your life.